I usually do well on tests. It’s not so hard to get a good grade when one only needs to figure out what the teacher wants to hear and regurgitate it back to them.
But the two tests I most recently finished, I failed. I completely missed what the instructor wanted on the first – wasn’t listening or focusing on what others were doing and really had an entirely different perspective on the purpose and objectives and regard for truth. On the second, the questions were innocuous – there did not appear to be a right answer because it was about how I felt but in the end as I went over the initial results of the exam – I understood that there were right answers, I just didn’t know what they were.
It’s the sort of thing that sinks me. It’s been almost a month and I have yet to let it go. They were so diminishing but as I prepare for my rapidly approaching black belt test I need to shake off that ‘not good enough’ feeling.